Taking time to just be still

Ssssshhhhhhh.  Do you hear that?  Listen closely.  Nope?  Me either!  I hear nothing, absolutely nothing — and it’s glorious!  For the first time in ages, I am in my house completely alone, except for my loyal pooch who is eyeing the mail truck from his perch on the back of the couch.  My children are happily hanging out with their Lolly and Poppy (aka, my parents) and my husband is in the middle of his one office day of the week.  And so here I sit.

I came across this on Pinterest not too long ago. It made me laugh! (http://www.pinterest.com/pin/111604896989317914/)

I have a running list in my head of all the things I can accomplish today from house cleaning to laundry to bill paying to errands to article research.  And I will do some of those things.  I’ve already done some of those things.  But for now, for this moment, I am basking in the quiet.  I am enjoying the prospect of baking my lunch in the oven (it’s french fries that I’m going to top with cheese and bacon like I haven’t done in at least two years — judge away!) without having to worry about interruption.  I’m enjoying hearing only my keyboard clacking as I’m typing this blog post.  I can hear the faint hum of my dryer running in the garage.  Most days, I can’t hear the dryer running because my house is filled with a 4-year-old who loves to talk, a 13-month-old who loves to babble and screech and a husband who is on a conference call for work or laughing with the kids.  I love those sounds.  Those are the sounds I live for.  Those are the sounds that make my heart content.  Those are the sounds that make my soul happy.  Those are the sounds that leave me feeling at peace.

However, those are the sounds that I don’t mind a bit of a break from.  I know one day I will miss them.  I know one day having my house be this quiet will make me melancholy, but today is not that day.  Today is more a Day of Stacey.  Today is a day that I get a couple of hours just to be me and do what I want, listen to what I want and eat what I want while it’s still warm.  Today is the kind of day that every single mother of little ones needs every so often.  Today I’m taking a small break from motherhood and I’m making no apologies.

Sometimes I feel guilty when I get a break.  Sometimes I feel obligated to get a lot accomplished.  Today I’m just trying to let that go, be at peace and enjoy myself.  I’m trying to remind myself to bask in the stillness of my house.  I’m reminding myself to watch the snow falling peacefully outside and appreciate its beauty, in spite of the fact that it is technically spring and this winter won’t ever end.  I’m reminding myself to just be.  I’m reminding myself that sometimes I can just sit and that’s OK.  I don’t have to constantly be productive.

Tired mama, I give you permission to just be, too.  Just rest, whatever that looks like for you today.  Maybe you can score some divine alone time like I have.  Maybe you can’t.  Maybe you can go for five minutes alone in the bathroom.  Maybe you can spring for a trip to Starbucks or whatever you like by yourself.  Whatever you can do, just enjoy yourself today.  Take a few moments to just be.  Take a few moments to not only not be doing anything for anyone else, but also to not feel guilty that you’re not.  Take a few moments to enjoy downtime without feeling unaccomplished because your to-do list is looming.  Just be.  Just enjoy.  Just rest.  The fray will be there when you’re finished, whether that’s five minutes or five hours away.  Just be.  Trust me, it’s sublime!

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