A fitness update

It sits in my bathroom judging me.  My daughter’s bathmat stacked on top of it can’t hide it completely from me.  I feel its judgment every time I walk in there.  It is my bathroom scale.  And it’s something I totally want to avoid when things aren’t going well. We have a bit of a love/hate relationship.

I figured it was time for a weight loss/get-in-shape/be-healthier update for you.  I’ve actually been thinking that for a couple of weeks.  I’ve been wondering if I just don’t mention it to you again if you’d just forget about it.  But, I wouldn’t.  I promised I’d keep you posted, right?  So, here I am.

My deal with myself and two other like-minded women who I e-mail weekly is that we’ll weigh in on Fridays and keep each other posted on how we’re doing. We’ll encourage each other.  We’ll commiserate with each other.  And, hopefully, we’ll get healthier together.  I didn’t e-mail them two weeks ago.  I was too scared to get on the scale.  I had gained almost two pounds back and then stagnated at that number for a week.  Two weeks ago, it was more than I can bear, so I conveniently “forgot” to weigh.

This is a find from Pinterest. I've not been able to track down the source, but it very much describes my diet battles. And it makes me laugh! (Also, for the record, I'm not trying to get this bikini body. I'm much more realistic than that!)

Last Friday I decided I needed to face the music.  I’d been making good eating decisions only about 50 to 70 percent of the time.  I needed to at least know.  And then I’d decide what I’d share with these lovely ladies who are nice enough to encourage me and not judge me.  We’re in the trenches together.  So, I climbed on the scale.  Holy cow!  I was actually down 1.6 pounds!  I’m still up a pound from where I was at the beginning of February, but that’s not so bad.  It’s MUCH better than what I expected.

The funny thing for me in dealing with weight loss is that when I’m losing weight then I stay motivated to eat well.  When I gain weight then I’m much less motivated and much more likely to make bad decisions.  How does that work?  You’d think that gaining weight would make me reassess what I’ve been doing and make an improvement.  But, if I were that rational about food, I’d probably not have a need to lost weight in the first place.

And so that’s my truth and my update.  My number isn’t as low as I’d like it to be, but it’s also not as high as I feared it would be.  So, it encourages me to keep going.  I have lots of reasons and excuses I can tell you for why I had a couple of off weeks, but they don’t really matter.  I think it’s part of the journey.  At least that’s what I tell myself. I think that staying motivated is difficult sometimes.  I think I have habits that are harder to break than even I realized.  But, I am doing my best to keep myself accountable and face reality.   I got on that scale last Friday.  The Stacey I was this time last year probably wouldn’t have even done that.

Like I told you before, I’m also working with God on this one.  For some reason I just have never done that.  While I’ve been praying to stay motivated and have self-control, I’ve also prayed lately to get back on track with being motivated and having self-control.  I feel very much like it’s working.   And sometimes I feel like I’m battling myself and Satan about what I’m eating.  It’s a battle.  I can’t do it on my own.  I don’t think that God cares what dress size I wear, but I do know He sees my body as a temple.  I’m working to do the same.

Anyone else dealt with diet and motivation struggles?  What do you do to keep yourself on track?

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